Regained my lost Independence from my phone!

SPARK TRAILZZZ!

Somehow I felt my life depended on my phone and my facebook
I love it when my phone rings cos it makes me feel like someone just thought about me
And if I read posts and comments on FB, I feel deeply connected
Then if I get a mail on Yahoo or Facebook or even my office mailbox, I feel important
A serious part of something
Anyways, after talking to a friend on Friday
I was just smiling sheepishly to myself
And it struck me like a thunderbolt, my happiness has been coming
Not from within but from outside, from my phone
And somehow I have let my modern technology determine how I smile
How important I feel about myself, my daily programmes, just how I live my sweet life
OK, so my friend said he was gonna call back?
I just took my phone, pressed my power button and off my phone went
Lets see if I will be happy on my own
I have always prided myself on my independence
Time to see if I am truly as independent as I claim to be
Because if I lack the power to my own happiness
Just how independent am I?

So this morning I am all smiles,
I looked inside me this weekend, I searched my soul real hard
And somehow everything that I have left unattended to, I had time to think on it
After staying at home and having a really wonderful time going out by myself
I realised that, Yes, I have lost a little of my most cherished independence to my phone
And have failed to simply just enjoy life itself
I discovered that the guy who does my weaves atimes is gay and very conscious of being judged Hence his attack on me for something very trivial
He just plain stated '...I don't care if you call me a...FFAAAGGGGG!'
Jeez, how could I not have seen? I just had myself a good laugh
I even noticed that the guy who sells my dvds to me has a lovely smile and clearly digs me
' who would have thought?'
And that I missed One Tree Hill so much that I finished Season Seven one day!
And totally understood again why my friends think Brooke is so me
And that I have put a lot of things on serious PAUSE for my phone
So I just kicked back and had a swell time, laughed and shared my life with people that really matters to me
And it felt soooooooooo good
Not that my phone doesn't matter
Its just that...well... I love my independence and I was just proving a point to me
So my phone is now on people...just give me a ring
I really missed you all!
... And well, You will still make me very happy!

I wanna fake die?

SPARK TRAILZZZ!

What is it with we Nigerians?
I mean, why aren't we just real and open and even plain straight?
I seriously think that most of our problems stem from our constant inability to tell ourselves the truth and just stop creating false air around us.
And even when others just get real and do their own thing the way they feel about it,
We run them down and make them wish they never got real.
We don't talk about sex and even when someone does, we run them down
Like we all don't get into it and because we don't talk about it in the right way
Not during jesting sessions, we do the thing wrongly
We go to church and even live next door to all kinds of religious home
However, we are the dirtiest minded people
With all sorts of scam lodging in our head
If you come out plain and talk about your weaknesses
Instead of help you build strength to overcome them,
People just act like you are the devil himself
As if every man isn't born with a measure of weakness
Seriously! He who has no sin cast the first stone.
I have read a lot of Nigerian articles
And all the time I can't help seeing how much doused in hypocrisy they are
Normal sins we all just commit everyday like lie, gossip and even cheating
Gets talked about like the writer was writing from the gates of heaven
Come on! Who are we fooling? Ourselves?
I am sure its ourselves we are fooling and not others around us
Because if you are like me that have a way of making people open up and talk
And if you hear the things that very self righteous people have to say
Trust me, You will be like me right now
Angry at our baggage of deceits and over pretentiousness.
I am not promoting evil with my blog
God forbid! But I am just saying
Openness might be the key to solving all our individual issues
And possibly our Nationality issues
Everyone wants to be seen as what they are not
Everyone wants to be perceived as an angel
What we don't know is that we reek of evil.
Don't tell me you don't enjoy sex with that self righteous frown on your face.
Just because it makes you look good, so why do you do it
Don't tell me you never told a lie to get something or look better.
Because even pastors lie from time to time
Why crucify KC Presh just because he said Ijeoma's ring is worth $20,000
Didn't Jay Z also tell us how much Beyonce's ring was worth?
Can't we just let our starts be stars? Na wa
Stop there now, Don't tell me 'She is pregnant' looking like she has leprosy
Damn! How many abortions have you had?
And how many girls have you impregnated?
So you wanna look good by living a double life?
If you have cancer and you cover it up
You will die eventually without even trying Chemo
So our president is back, dead or alive we still don't know
All cause of the seat of power
Is this inborn, would we continue being what we are not
Good people Great Nation? Giant of Africa?!
So who are we?
Its high time we got down to being open about so many things and finding solutions
And not patching things up with bogus names and fake actions
Or our children will grow up and learn from others how to be
Then more Abdul Mutallab will surface
How can we deal with that then if we don't do the right things now?
Please, LET'S GET REAL!

...And see me typing away, as if am any better
A friend once said '...All na hype...'
And you know what? I believe him
Because am guilty of this sin too.
I wanna fake die?

...Being in love with that guy...

SPARK TRAILZZZ!

...Being in love with that guy
That guy you can't take to the movies
You don't share the sunset by the beach with him
Walk those lonely cold nights lost in his arms
That guy that you can't roll over at night and feel his arms around you
Being in love with that guy that lives only in your head
You can almost smell him and make out his face in the dark
And you can hear him saying 'Babe, relax, it will all be fine'
Still you can't hold him 'cause each time he is just a shadow
You miss him so much but you aren't even with him
You cook him a storm and dance, swaying slowly in sync with him
Say something and he laughs and totally gets your joke
But when you open your eyes, its all smoke...

Being in love with that guy
Its been so so tough but I still love him so
Cause what better guy to be in love with than my dream guy?

NOW THAT'S LOVE!

SPARK TRAILZZZ!



My cousin asked just today, ' How do you know you are in love'.
Been asking this question myself.

I mean if my palms sweat and I feel butterflies and I race towards you like my feet were feathers and when I look in your eyes, I lose my tongue and stutter when I finally find it, am I in love with you?

If I always compromise all my standards and sacrifice most things for you, I practically like lick you boots and do everything to stay your bright eyed angel, Is that really love?

I mean, love is sacrificial and compromises a lot. Like all those novel-like feelings is all very, very romantic, agreed
Like if I have all these butterflies and my heart skips. I gosh over my words and get lost in your eyes and get drenched in your voice. I could stay up late talking to you on the phone when I just said good bye to you and I need wake up for 5am in the morning. Like I hug you laughing and crying and you are saying to yourself, 'she has darn well lost her mind'.
That's all so romantic and all. Yeah, yeah, that could be love. But there's more...

Love is a comfortable feeling and like all human feelings, very, very unstable. I mean, I don't wanna be someone else in love. I would still wanna be myself. Of course compromises are good but come on people, if I compromise even myself into the bargain, who am I then? You wanted to be in love with me anyways and if you wanted a perfect angel, go to heaven!

So let me run to you and hold you tight
Let me cry and laugh or do both at once
Let me let my hair tussle up and skip the make up

Let me even scream and nag and plain wanna smash your dumb head in because you just don't get how much you mean to me (of course I shouldn't over do that. Ha ha!)


Let me be quiet for a while and chat up the dead when its in me ( am a parrot too sometimes)
Let me just be me around you
Hey, just hold on, I will be your angel in a bit but heck! I want to be just a lil' she devil for a while...

And when am done with being just me, I look back at you and your love shines with so much love, more than the day you first said you love me
And I promise to love you just the same way, That's love.
The promise to be with you unconditionally and you being with me? That's love right there!

A wise man once told me that love is like a cup
It fills up and up and up and up and then it start flowing over
Then we start drowning in it. That's when we feel it the most.
The tides are so strong and then it gets spent with our various challenges.
It never empties but its not so full anymore
He then lowers his voice and says, '...today, we are up up up up baby, Let's enjoy it and don't be afraid to get it spent for new and fresh rain is coming.' NOW THAT'S LOVE!

Love is the highest of highs and the lowest of lows and me being me and you being you and us being together through it all. THAT'S LOVE!

Six qualities that I possess, upps! Did I lie?

SPARK TRAILZZZ!

I’ve written numerous articles and posts on difficult people, personalities and relationships: Everything from Manipulative Marys to Bullies in the workplace to people who break boundaries to toxic relationships. Let’s face it: In life, we come across all kinds! As humans, we often focus on those who are negative or toxic leaving it difficult to appreciate those who are positive and healthy. Seeking out individuals with healthy, positive traits, however, may do a lot of good. The more we can surround ourselves with those who are positive and healthy, the more we may model those positive behaviors.

If you really think about it, once in awhile you come across a person who knocks you off your socks…legitimately. Maybe they have a fantastic outlook on life, even during difficult times. Maybe they are really humble, although they are extremely gifted. Maybe they make you feel special. All of these are good.

Below, I've listed some of the traits I admire most in people. Although I could probably list a dozen characteristics, I thought I’d list those that seem to be the rarest or most difficult to find.

1. Selflessness: In a world where many people don’t have the time or the interest in others, selflessness is a quality that seems to be less and less common. People can be selfless in the time they give, the ability to listen, their level of patience and the love that they give. Those who are giving and generous in nature have the power to make others feel loved, appreciated and special. While those who are self-absorbed tend to do the exact opposite.
2. Tolerance: Those people who are tolerant make us feel comfortable with who we are and special as individuals. All of us are different, and many of us have quirks and idiosyncrasies. After all, these differences make the world go round. Having the ability to accept people for who they are and not expect them to be who we want them to be is important in life, happiness and in the health of our relationships.
3. Genuineness: Having the ability to be real, authentic and honest is unique in a world where we put so much emphasis on the superficial. Feeling comfortable in one’s skin and being true to one’s self is one of the most beautiful traits one can possess. To have a REAL relationship with someone requires honesty…it requires hearing and giving input or feedback that may not always be popular…it means having the strength to tell it like it is and to not be afraid to face the consequences for doing so…it means loving people for who they really are…deep down…and not for what they appear to be.
4. Sensitivity: So often we are focused on what is important to ourselves that we can forget about those around us. Those who are sensitive are often thoughtful, appreciative and loving, in a way that makes you feel understood, valued and respected. Often, sensitive people are also self-aware, making them mindful of how they impact others with what they do and say.
5. Integrity: Call me cynical, but I think this characteristic is especially difficult to find. In a time when people will do things that are underhanded to make an extra buck (Bernie Madoff…can you hear me?), expose their personal lives to the public so they can be famous (balloon boy’s dad and any other reality TV mongers) and do what feels good in the moment without necessarily thinking of the consequences (Tiger Woods), integrity is a characteristic that is especially unique today.
6. Humility: Whether someone is super-smart, extremely talented or drop-dead gorgeous, there is something extra special about them if they don’t come across as though they know it all the time. Humility in those that possess extraordinary traits make others feel special too.

Oh boy the list could go on! What characteristics do you admire in others? Are there any that you want to cultivate?

Originally published on Sheer Balance

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/life/6-personality-traits-to-admire-and-acquire-576756/

So I have all this Characteristics and am like OMG! Am such a fabulous person. OK, OK, OK! Maybe not all but I have five of it, still working on the integrity part because come to think of it, can you possibly live your life and seriously think through the possible consequences of everything you do? I don't know about you but for a very spontaneous and adventurous person like me, it can get hard.

So do you have all these qualities, do u think I lied when I said I have all of these qualities (lol) or do u have anything to add? Leave your comments on here or my fb page. Let's review these admirable qualities and then you can make fun of me too if you think I don't possess any of them. Let's get real people!

Last week, a bloody mess! This week? Stand tall and live!

SPARK TRAILZZZ!

So unfortunately last week didn't pan out well
When I already believed otherwise.
First I didn't start a class I was supposed to start on Monday
Something that was supposed to give me a sense of achievement.
Well I felt, it's still OK, Can start next week.
Then I had this annoying issue at work
A guy being a total jerk and bringing on another total jerk
To further make work more difficult
Don't know why guys won't just stop feeling the world revolves around them
Yeah, it's a man's world but who said we can't live in it freely
So by Wednesday, my week was already a big drag
Well I have this pillar I run to for safety
I ran there again, eased my troubled heart, Got a good laugh out of it all
Back to work on Thursay, I felt hmmmnnn, it's looking better
Thursay went by without much drama
Friday came and started sweetly
Laughter, smiles, work
But the storm came strong again by the evening
Just when I thought I had it all together
My pillar became very shaky
We both blew hot and cold and ended warm
Cool, I said at least all is not lost, we patched that nicely
But by Saturday, the dam broke loose
My beautifully patched pillar took a lash
And am back to sub zero
What happened? I made an unnecessary call and broke my limit
Would I be forgiven? Have I done the unthinkable?
What's next? What's the way forward
So last week was all drama
I start this one with a wounded heart
Feeling bereaved and a washed
My heart is exposed and all my emotions bared
But would I run? No!
Would I faint? No!
I don't have any pillar to run to today
But I promise myself that I will stay strong
I won't be daunted and onward bravely I must
Anybody feeling like me today? Know one thing
THIS WILL BE THE BEST WEEK EVER 'CAUSE MOST GOOD THINGS START OUT POORLY
YOUR HAPPINESS IS YOURS TO DECIDE SO STAND TALL AND LIVE!