I just sit here and wonder why.
Why exactly do we even need to go through all that stress
I have never fully understood having to even agree to it all at the very least
Why leave a family that loves you so dearly not minding who you are and enter one you know naught about
All the scrutiny, all the continuous seeking of family approval and acceptance
After which the gruesome planning of all the different tormenting ceremony after ceremony
Introduction, traditional, court and white wedding?
Then leaving your birth given name for some acquired one just to boost the man's ego
Marking his complete ownership of you
Then the beginning of another era, you in a new house turning it into a home solely by yourself
I wonder why women even smile at all during their wedding
Why that big broad grin when you should just be whimpering at the thought of such a foreign experience?
Just the sheer fear of becoming a part of another human being should strike us down with overwhelming emotions
Just the imagination of being a part in the creation another life should have us running in our beautiful white dresses and breaking the heels of our silver sandals from the flight
I look at all these picture over and over again
These women are glowing, I still don't understand why, no one seems to be bothered that they are giving up their freedom
FREEDOM! people, why crave slavery so
Then it finally dawns on me. I laugh so hard tears come gushing down my eyes
Yes, I think I know why we are rushing towards it
I finally understand that to find a man that wants you, no, needs you to function, to exist, to build his future
Is the best feeling ever. It means you are a key to someone's destiny.
I understand that when he makes his vows to you and tell you that he 'takes' you to be his lawful wedded wife
The only woman with complete power over him, and he willingly gives that to you
That is something wonderful
But best of all, to find that man you wanna give up all your own life for
To look into his eyes and hold his whole world in your hands and your womb
To find that man that loves you no matter what
That constantly tells you 'I love you, you are my world' and means it to the very last
That's the reason that all these ladies are smiling and not frowning
Yes, I wanna find such a man too and suddenly I know its not scary at all
In fact I am sure I will be grinning like a fool that found a shiny gold coin on my own day
Heck yeah, That's why we are all gonna be smiling in that big white dress you wear only once in your life (if you are lucky ;-)
I also need me such a man. And you guessed right, I just placed an order. lol
